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July 31, 2013
July 23, 2013
What's in A Name?: The Story of the Abused Woman
After looking at some of the ethical issues
surrounding self-defense and violence against women (particularly sexual assault),
I would like to share with you a biblical story that I have really come to
treasure. I only started looking at this story differently earlier this year,
when it suddenly occurred to me that the way I was taught this story (and how
it continues to be taught) might be way off the mark – John 8:1-11.
“Jesus
returned to the Mount of Olives, 2 but early the next morning he was back again at the Temple. A
crowd soon gathered, and he sat down and taught them. 3 As he was speaking, the teachers of religious law and the
Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in the act of adultery. They put
her in front of the crowd.4 “Teacher,” they said to Jesus, “this woman was caught in the act
of adultery. 5 The law of Moses says to stone her. What do you say?”6 They were trying to trap him into saying something they could use
against him, but Jesus stooped down and wrote in the dust with his finger. 7 They kept demanding an answer, so he stood up again and said, “All right, but let the one who has never sinned throw the first
stone!”8 Then he stooped down again and wrote in the dust.9 When the accusers heard this, they slipped away one by one,
beginning with the oldest, until only Jesus was left in the middle of the crowd
with the woman. 10 Then Jesus stood up again and said to the woman, “Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?”11 “No, Lord,” she said.And Jesus said, “Neither do I. Go and sin no more”
(New Living Translation).
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Image: Woman Caught in Adultery, John Martin Borg, 2002 |
still
there are days
when there is no way
not even a chance
that i'd dare for even a second
glance at the reflection of m body in the mirror
and she knows why
like I know why
she only cries
when she feels like she's about to lose control
she knows how much control is worth
knows what a woman can lose
when her power is taken away
by a grip so thick with hate
it could clip the wings of an angel
leave the next eight generations of your blood shaking
and tonight something inside me is breaking
my heart beating so deep beneath the sheep of her pain
i could give every tear she's crying a year - a name
and a face i'd forever erase from her mind if i could
just like she would
for me
or you
but how much closer to free would any of us be
if even a few of us forgot
what too many women in this world cannot
and i'm thinking
what would you tell your daughter
your someday daughter
when you'd have to hold her beautiful face
to the beat up face of this place
that hasn't learned the meaning of
STOP
walking to your car alone
get the keys in the lock
please please please please open
like already you can feel
that five fingered noose around your neck
two hundred pounds of hatred
digging graves into the sacred soil of your flesh
please please please please open
already you're chocking for your breath
listening for the broke record of the defense
answer the question
answer the question
answer the question miss
why am i on trial for this
would you talk to your daughter
your sister your mother like this
i am generation of daughters sisters mothers
our bodies battlefields
war grounds
beneath the weapons of your brother's hands
do you known they've found land mines
in broken women's souls
black holes in the parts of their hearts
that once sand symphonies of creation
bright as the light on infinity's halo
she says
i remember the way love
used to glow like glitter on my skin
before he made his way in
now every tough feels like a sin
please
bruises on her knees from praying to forget
she's heard stories of vietnam vets
who can still feel the tingling of their amputated limbs
she's wondering how many women are walking around this world
feeling the tingling of their amputated wings
remembering what it was to fly to sing
(By: Andrea Gibson http://www.endthesilencecampaign.org/poetry/andrea-gibson/blue-blanket/)
The abuse of
the young woman captured in this poem speaks to the experience of the woman who
is commonly referred to as “the adulterous woman in John 8.” We already labeled
this woman, we have already given her a name. But she has no name in the story.
She could just as easily be described as the abused woman. The wretched woman.
The used woman. The story of the abused woman begins while Jesus is teaching
and a group of religious leaders burst onto the scene, bringing the woman and
force her to stand, shamed and disgraced, in front of the entire crowd.
_____________________________
Over the next
week or two, I want to continue looking at this story in a new light.
July 18, 2013
Women and Self Defense: Living in the Not Yet
One aspect of exploring peace, violence, and
self-defense is clear – it is difficult to have a black and white answer if you
are attempting to answer honestly both Scripture as well as experience (fear of
assault, the desire to protect others, etc.). There are myriads of grey
areas and numerous questions with no easy answers. I still have lingering
doubts and uncertainties about this problem that has haunted me for years.
For example, it is difficult to tell a woman who has experienced rape
that she must love her enemy. On the other hand, it is problematic to
take only yourself into consideration and not the New Testament ethic of
concern for your neighbors and enemies. It is a difficult balancing act
and I doubt that I will ever be completely at peace with it. For example,
shouldn't I be striving to meet the ideals of God’s kingdom though it is not
yet fully present? Is it possible to come to an agreement on when
it is proper to use violence and when it is not? Is the “middle ground” I
am treading on actually possible to reach a consensus on? Is it all too
subjective when it is justifiable to use violence and when it is not? Is
any situation where a woman experiences fear grounds for violence? For
example, if my purse is stolen, is it justifiable to use self-defense?
Alternatively, should self-defense be used solely when bodily harm is
threatened by an assailant? How does one know for
certain beforehand whether to use violence or not?
A person also has
the issue of control. When engaging in violence, you can never be sure of
the outcome. It is very easy to harm an attacker more than intended or
for some other unforeseeable event to occur. Additionally, where do
you draw the line on how much violence to use? Many people are perfectly
content with using guns while others desire to use less lethal methods (As I’ve
mentioned before, I am uncomfortable with guns – they are simply too lethal for
me to feel morally comfortable with). However, there is again the
difficulty of never knowing when an act may be deadly. I am left in
the precarious position of balancing both love for enemy and love for
self. Until violence is done away with and God reigns fully
among God’s people, this tension will exist. Then, God “will wipe every
tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or
pain. All these things are gone forever” (Revelation 21:1-4).
One “cannot
live responsibly by a love which is abstracted and divorced from justice, and
from the rational and structural elements which constitute justice…but must be
held together in unity of their polar tensions.” It is within these
tensions that I find the answer to my question. I will seek to always
love others, but there are some situations where the most loving act for all
involved is to use controlled self-defense to stop the assault. Even more
importantly, I will work to hone my skills in preventing violence (and
promoting peace), because violence is always a sad and terrible
thing, even if it helps others and is a lesser evil. I recognize this
as part of the narrative of Scripture. We live in a time between Eden and
the New Jerusalem – there is sin, violence, hatred, and a world full of
pain. I acknowledge the need for protecting the vulnerable from the
powerful until that time. I also recognize that violence belongs to this
time of chaos and not to the time of the New Jerusalem. We live in the Not Yet - God's Kingdom has not yet fully come. Avoiding assault
through self-defense may be the lesser evil, but it still is tainted – it is
not the ideal. I long for the days when people can live together
peaceably in the New Jerusalem. But that time has not yet arrived. Nonetheless, I yearn for this time of peace and safety, when women no longer have to worry about rape and sexual assault. One day I will stop looking over my shoulder and viewing most males as a potential threat. Until that time, I will continue to wade through the murky waters of loving others but using restrained violence (if absolutely necessary) in order to stop this epidemic that plagues women the world over.

July 9, 2013
The Good, the Bad, and the Kingdom of God: Narratives and Responsibility in a Violent Assault
When I look back at what it is that bothers me so much about self-defense, I find that I am torn between caring for myself (or others) and the larger narrative of the kingdom of God. The narrative of the kingdom of God is the larger framework in which I view the world; it is the lens through which I see the world. However, I combine this picture of what the kingdom of God means with the ethic of responsibility to self and others in order to help figure out what on earth the ethics of the kingdom of God looks like in various situations.
The Narrative of the Kingdom of God
Narrative ethics sets the stage for my concern
about self and others. Here, I ask
myself “Who am I becoming? Who are we
becoming?” and what do my actions contribute to the larger world narrative.
This was the question that triggered my quandary– I did not want to be a
violent person. I became concerned that my obsession for personal safety was so
inwardly focused that it was making me become a person I did not want to be (as
a side note, you can practice self-defense but you must consider the effect is
has on you and the world. This is where I began to run into problems). It is not a list of rules that appeal to me
and set my morals, but the vision of God’s kingdom. God’s kingdom is not
centered around doing what is best for me and mind. There is a much larger picture
that sets the story for our interactions with the world. Hauerwas writes, “to be Christian is not principally to obey certain
commandments or rules, but to learn to grow into the story of Jesus as the form
of God’s kingdom. We express that by
saying we must learn to be disciples.”
What we ought to do must be connected to who we are and the story that
we are a part of. “Through story, we
interpret, evaluate, and envision the world – and determine our roles and
responsibilities within it.”

One idea that is vital to
me is the interconnectedness of all people.
There is an overarching story that is seen throughout the Bible and
especially in the Gospel. Ideas from the
Christian narrative that are central to this narrative are that we are all
sinners and live in a fallen world. This
does not excuse criminal activity and harming others, but it does help
understand how we are connected. Many
people create a binary of good and bad people, but we are each marred by sin. We
each have our own life and background that creates a complicated picture of
every person. Additionally, the idea
that Christ can redeem and save even the darkest of hearts is important – our binary
of good people and bad people is again challenged if we believe that God’s forgiveness
is open to every “bad person.” We are to
model ourselves after Christ, who sees each of us a potential member of the
Kingdom of God. Finally, all human life
is important and each person is made in the image of God. These few ideas are
what I see and think of when I think of the Kingdom of God as being the
background to our lives.
I frame
my life in this overarching storyline. I
believe who I am and what I do contributes to that story, and that this
narrative should affect me and all of my actions. However, what this looks like can be
different depending on who is telling the story. The “law of love” is
interpreted differently by every person.
The law
of love is too general to tell us when we ought to do what a commandment tells
us not to do. We need more than love,
say, to tell us when we “ought” to shoot a human being. We need solid evidence that it is necessary
to break a commandment in order to respect both the rights and needs of someone
for whom we are responsible. We need a reasonable indication that breaking a
commandment will serve the cause of justice as well as the law of love.[1]
The second idea I want to use to help guide the
narrative and the role I play in it is the idea of responsibility.
Adding a Dash of Responsibility to the Law of
Love
The narrative of Christianity leaves us with a
very broad set of ethics. Adding the
idea of responsibility helps to refine our personal roles in the larger
narrative into manageable portions. An
ethic of responsibility focuses on the response we give to action upon us, but
it also looks at the larger ramifications of our actions. It seeks to balance the interests of the
larger narrative as well as the individual players.
In my moral dilemma, the question arises as to
whom I responsible to in a dangerous situation?
My initial instinct is to take care of myself; however, the narrative ethic
I looked at above demands that I also consider everyone involved – including the
assailant. While seeking various
perspectives on this issue, I have become frustrated by the false dichotomy
that many make: if you are a pacifist, you are faithful to the gospel but
irresponsible socially and if you are for violent intervention, you are being
unfaithful to the gospel but acting responsibly.[2] I have a
responsibility to consider my enemy, but I can also protest against sexual
assault. If one contends for even a
minimal amount of consideration towards one’s neighbors, then one has the
responsibility to do the least amount of harm in order to escape to
safety. This does not mean that no
offensive actions can be taken, but it does restrict what self-defense one can
use (shooting to kill, for example, should not be one’s first response).
Since one has a responsibility to one’s enemy,
one of the most important practices to cultivate is preventative self-defense.
The more I think about it, the more convinced I am that each person has a moral
obligation to cultivate these skills. These include things such as being aware
of one’s surroundings, keeping doors locked, and not walking alone. People (and
I am especially calling out all WOMEN to look out for one another) must realize
that these little precautions may be what saves her from walking into a
potentially dangerous situation where violence, assault, and even death can
occur. If a confrontation does arise,
attracting attention to your situation and showing that you are willing to put
up a fight are often all one needs to scare off an attacker (as I did in the
story I shared in my last post). The
last resort should be physical violence, BUT it is an ethically acceptable step
to keep one safe as well as to keep the assailant from harming himself. Intervening with a controlled amount of
violence in dangerous situations is taking responsibility for self as well as
the assailant.
In sum, this is a difficult decision on “how to
incorporate what we believe love and justice together dictate,” but never to
separate the two. I deeply desire and
long for the day when violence is no longer needed. Until that time, I will use non-violent but
active methods of self-defense in the majority of situations; I will
continually train in prevention as an act of love to myself and to my enemies.
However, I am not unfaithful to the gospel or unethical if the need for
self-defense does arise and I use a controlled amount of force to stop the situation.
[1] As a side note, I am really
uncomfortable with killing as a morally justifiable or even a morally laudable
action. However, this quote can be
applied to self-defense and responsibility in general. Guns are still a twisted
moral knot I am trying to untie, but I do not include them in my definition of
self-defense because they are simply too deadly. As I mentioned in my last blog, this has
absolutely nothing to do with laws or rights. This is a moral issue that I am
trying to work out. The law says I may own a gun, but I am not convinced
that it is morally justifiable at this point. My thoughts may change on the
subject (they are constantly turning over the moral implications of carrying a
gun), but that is where I am at right now. I cannot morally justify owning a
gun to myself. It conflicts too greatly with my responsibility to love my
neighbor and love my enemy.
[2] At a recent conference, one
of my past professors, David Matson, argued against the popular pacifist
movements in many churches and denominations.
While we may strive for peace, refusing to intervene may actually be
perpetrating more violence. The example
he used was whether or not a pacifist should intervene if a woman is
going to be raped. He argued that not acting would be causing more violence
than forcibly stopping the rape. However, it is
important to also remember that not all situations are best handled with
violence. In my last post, I shared a terrifying ordeal I had with a dangerous
stranger in a parking lot. It would have been irresponsible and much more
dangerous to have used physical violence in that situation instead of yelling
at the guy. Violence is ALWAYS dangerous (to everyone involved) and should
ALWAYS be a last resort.
June 24, 2013
Scary Stories: Is there a way to love others in the midst of violence?
This post continues where my previous one left off. To review: I've studied martial arts in reaction to being scared of people. The situation I am writing with in mind is sexual assaults on women. However, how ethical is studying ways to hurt people (to put it bluntly)? What about self-defense? The first place to for this ethical dilemma was Scripture. It has examples of both violence and restraint. Out of all this, however, there is a demand to love others. How on earth can I do that when we are talking about sexual assault? In this entry, I will look at the second source that informs my actions - stories and statistics.
For me, the most compelling arguments for self-defense is the stories and statistics of rape and attempted rape (this can also be extended to other violent situations!). I live with fear and wariness every day. Every time I go for a walk I am constantly aware of my situation, who is near me, and whether I have a good grip on my pepper spray. I am careful when I load my groceries in the car. I don't answer my door. The fear and cautiousness that many women are forced to handle daily is a significant portion of their lived experience. I think a lot of people don’t realize this aspect of violence – the dread and exhaustion of always being cautious is something I carry heavily on my shoulders in a way that many people don’t quite understand. (I totally know that men are also victims of sexual abuse, but I am just trying to share my experience as a woman.)
I have only been caught in an
extremely compromising situation once and it scared me to
death. I left my friend’s apartment
around midnight and started to walk to my own apartment by myself – just a few hundred
feet away. A man appeared out of the
dark parking lot, and started coming directly towards me, carrying a motorcycle helmet (a potential weapon), making threats about what
he was going to do with me since he had me all to himself. (It was really vulgar,
so I will not repeat it. However, those words often echo in my mind when a
stranger comes too closely into my personal space). In a split second, I realized what a stupid situation
I was in. I was all by myself, I didn't have keys, a phone, my pepper spray, or
anything to use as a weapon except myself. So, I screamed. And then started to threatened
him in turn. I told him what I was going
to do to him if he did not walk away. The most shocked expression appeared on his
face and he turned and ran. He didn't know what to do with a woman ready to fight back. However, I never lifted a finger. This was a bold move and I have no idea how it
happened. I didn't even think, I just started talking. Call it Providence, God,
or whatever you want, but the night before this occurrence, my Aikido
instructor gave me a book that suggested one way of getting out of dangerous places is by
taking control of the situation and startling the attacker before it turned
physical. I read a chapter that very morning
and I did exactly what the author suggested – and it worked! (Don't take this as what everyone should do in every situation. It was one way that happened to work to get out of a dangerous situation.)
It is not only the stories of terror that propel women like myself to take
self-defense measures – it is also statistics that show it is a common
occurrence. Every two minutes, someone in the U.S. is sexually assaulted.
Over 90 percent of the victims are
female and 1 out of every 6 American women will be the victim of an attempted
or completed rape in her lifetime (that is just ridiculous!). Females 12 to 34 are at the highest risk, with
80 percent of rapes happening to women under age 30. These statistics scare me to death. In reference to the self-defense question (What do I prepare myself for?), the vast majority (87%) of assaults are done through physical force alone (that is, with no weapon at all). Putting all
these numbers and percentages together, we can tell that it is most likely that
a young woman will be the target and the assault will be made by using physical
force alone as a weapon. And she will most likely not report the incident to
authorities or tell anyone (but more on that later).
The initial reaction of most
people is to do anything necessary to stop the assault. For many women, the reason they
learn self-defense is fear of assault and the desire to learn
how to respond effectively in a compromising situation (this is me). But what
does an assault look like? How are women assaulted by strangers? Years ago, reporter
Ann Landers at the LA Times received this letter from an anonymous rapist, who
wanted to warn women about his tactics:
"I'm a rapist. I do it because I like it. It's like hunting, only easier. Mostly because [women] travel by themselves,
work by themselves and are so dumb about taking care of themselves… I pick my
women because of their situations, which I've studied before I move. Looks don't mean a lot to me, but she's always
alone in a place where nobody else will come, or I get her to go to one. You'd be amazed how easy that is. About self-defense for women: Don't make me
laugh. I don't go after a woman who
looks like she'd be able to whip me in a fight. The best protection from me your working women
have is company or a locked door you're smart enough not to open when I ask. More than that, the best protection from me is
for you to remember that there are lots of guys like me out there who are
looking for you."
Yep, this is my definition of terrifying and what it is
that I am afraid of.
Now I have to take what I wrote
about in my previous post about the biblical ethics of violence and weigh it with
this second kind of information that informs my decision on what to do. If I
only consider my fear, then I am simply reacting to a situation. I would like
to go a step further and create an ethical framework that includes more than just data and terrifying stories. I have wrestled with experience,
the frightening statistics, and biblical texts for a long time. For me, a response emerges where I must
balance experience with the biblical ethic of caring for my neighbor and enemy.
I spoke in my previous post about the somewhat nebulous biblical passages about
violence and love. One thing stands out to me – there is some type of command
that demands that I consider others. What this looks like is really difficult
to discern. Is some violence acceptable and other kinds not? Do I need to think
about how lethal my response is? If I also care for self (which is equally important), I will not allow the
violation to occur without fighting it, but where do I draw the line? I feel like
my ethical framework must balance care for self and care for others. It is an extremely difficult position to hold these two values in tension with one another. For my next post, I will start to flush this idea out further.
June 21, 2013
Possessions as the Source of Violence: But What About MY Body?
A few eons ago, I started a blog series on the compatibility of self-defense/violence and Christianity. This issue is incredibly important to me and the questions continues to haunt me. As I described in the blog post prior to this one, I have taken martial arts for the purpose of self-defense for the last several years. Why? People scare me. I have friends who have been attacked and assaulted. I have been approached by a stranger but was successfully able to deescalate the situation. Statistics show that way too many women will get sexual assaulted in their lifetime, the vast majority before they hit 30 (and usually by someone known to them, but also sometimes by strangers). So, both reason and experience point to idea that it is not too crazy to be watching your back and have a ready answer with what you would do the day the approach/attack happens. The moral source that carries the greatest weight on this issue for me is Scripture. But it is way more complex than most Christians admit it to be. Not only is there a mixture of both violence as well as commands to love one another, but Scripture also does not address my moral question directly. This creates a complex issue to wade through.
Loving Your Enemy
The majority (all) of Christians pick and chooses which biblical passages are their norm and leave out anything that may challenge their interpretation. Nearly everything I have read on this topic falls into to extremes. For example, I was reading a blog recently entitled, “Love Your Enemies, Unless…” where the guy argues that there are no exceptions to Jesus’ command to love one’s enemies (Luke 6:32-36). He argues that many Christians mistakenly view this command as an ideal that does not have relevance in the real world. The blogger particularly emphasizes that when personal safety or the well-being of a loved one is at risk, Christians’ quickly dismiss concern for one’s enemy (which is a fair critique). The guy contends that Jesus and the early church praised self-sacrifice, love of neighbor, and even died before lifting a finger to save themselves. There are no references in the Bible to putting one’s own safety above the well-being of another person. Many pacifists similarly quote examples from the Sermon on the Mount, which contains many of the passages that are said to argue for following the higher calling of loving others. Hauerwas (probably one of the best known Christian pacifists out there with a lot of great questions on how to live life with a higher calling), for example, cites Matthew 5:43-48, as well as other pericopes from the Sermon on the Mount, to justify his argument for the ethical significance of Jesus and the foundation for his book, The Peaceable Kingdom. He writes, “For our possessions are the source of our violence. Fearing that others desire what we have…we seek self-deceptive justifications that mire us in patterns of injustice which can be sustained only through coercion. And of course we believe our most precious possession to be the self we have created, that we have chosen…What Jesus offers is a journey, an adventure. Once undertaken, we discover that what we once held valuable, even the self, we no longer count as anything.” Hauerwas argues that once we become disciples, we cannot count our personal safety as more valuable than another person’s well-being; the question of self-defense is no longer an issue when the self is viewed in this light. (But…it’s still an issue for me and I’m guessing most other people. So, why I think his statement is incredibly enlightening, I have some more ideas to wade through before I my “that’s it!” moment turns up. I would however, like us to keep it in mind as we continue, since there is a lot of truth to it.)
The Grey Area: More Complications
Both the
blogger I mentioned and Hauerwas argue that Jesus’ command to love one’s enemy
is a Scriptural ideal that is meant to be applied literally and in all
circumstances. When a person uses
violence against another, both men would see this action as morally wrong. However, it is extremely doubtful that Jesus
meant all of his statements to be taken literally by his followers. He often uses hyperbole to make a point, such
as cutting off body parts in order to keep from sinning (Matt 5:27-30). Few theologians argue for Christians to
follow this command, despite the fact that it is in the same chapter as Christ’s
command to love one’s enemies.
Additionally, does loving one’s enemy always necessitate a non-violent
response? Could one show love to a
neighbor by stopping them from assaulting a woman? Furthermore, passages from the Sermon on the
Mount fail to deal with violence supported by Yahweh in the Old Testament and
even by Jesus elsewhere in the Gospels.[1] If Scripture includes a mixed assessment of
violence, why should the Sermon on the Mount be more authoritative than other
passages?[2] Since self-defense against assault does not
have an exact analogy in Scripture, the issue becomes a complex puzzle of
different viewpoints from Scripture in addition to an attempt to apply passages
to situations that were not necessarily written to address it. Neither violence nor pacifism is upheld
throughout all of Scripture.
And that is where I am going to stop for today. (I know,
cliffhanger!). The hope of the series of posts I am going to be putting up this
week is that people will take a second to see where they fall on the issue of
violence (I’ve heard one or two people talking recently about guns and gun
control?) but then also on the issue of self-defense. Just to clarify, this has
absolutely nothing to do with constitutional rights and national laws. I am
concerned not about what the law allows me to do, but what can I ethically
condone in my own life with an issue that terrifies me?
Join me next time for how experience and stats are a
second moral source to draw from! (This part is one everyone can relate to, I’m
sure of it!)
[1] OT references include Nehemiah 1:14. References for
Jesus’ support on violence, see Matt 26:51-53 and Luke 22:36. A great book to check out is by Brendan F. Furnish,
and Dwight Hervey Small, The Mounting Threat of Home Intruders: Weighing the
Moral Option of Armed Self-Defense (Springfield, Ill.: C.C. Thomas, 1993),
107-125. Also, David Matson argues that modern translations of Luke
22:51 are portrayed as more pacifist than the Greek allows. Any edition prior to WWII has a very
different translation of the passage. One cannot help but wonder if this tragic
war left its mark on the pages of our Bibles. David Matson, “Pacifist Jesus? The (Mis)Translation of Luke
22:51,” a soon to be published paper presented at the Stone-Campbell Journal Conference,
Nashville, Tenn.: March 2013.[2] Hauerwas rejects the depiction of war and
violence in the OT as legitimately Christian.
February 2, 2013
Kicking Butt and Taking...the Well-being of My Enemies into Account?
Several years ago, a good friend of mine was assaulted. I had an intense emotional response to the traumatic event; I became paranoid and developed an unhealthy fear of being assaulted as well. This fear became crippling and I did not know how to move past it. To help, I joined a Kenpo Karate dojo, which is a mixed martial art focused exclusively on stopping as well as preventing any type of unwanted aggressive behavior. After a few years, I began to feel strong and capable. My sense of paralyzing fear was replaced with a healthy awareness of being able to avoid and, if needed, stop most types of assault. However, as my fear subsided and my training increased, I began to be troubled by how comfortable with violence I had become. I spent numerous hours every week for years learning how to inflict pain on others in order to save myself or to save others.
Statistics show that one in five women have been raped (or experienced an attempted rape), one
in four women have been beaten, and one in six women have been stalked. The odds are fair that at some point in my
life, I will face an attacker and I will have to decide how to respond. In
fact, I have been in several situations where I have had to deescalate
situations with hostile males through aggressive but non-physical
means (I am defining violence as forcing your will onto another person. This can be anything from a threatening look, yelling
inappropriate remarks, or to actually laying hands on a person with the intention to hurt them. When I used aggressive but non-physical means
to stop an attack, I yelled and threatened the person, which is the same
behavior he had started doing to me. So, we both used aggressive, but
non-physical violence in order to force our own will onto another person – in his
case, he was attempting sexual assault. In my case, I coerced him into stopping
his behavior and giving me time to get to safety. So, I won that confrontation by using similar techniques my "enemy" used on me). The next time I may not be
lucky enough to be in a situation that I can stop through aggressive but non-physical
means.
As a Christian, I believe in the value of
every human life. I also believe that sin has corrupted every person, some more
so than others. I believe the Sermon on
the Mount has the clearest commands about loving one’s neighbor and loving
one’s enemy. The question arises as to how to love others when someone
may mean you harm. Do I have a right to protect myself? Do I have a
responsibility to protect the vulnerable in my care (such as children)? Can
loving one’s enemy include stopping your enemy from committing a terrible sin?
If the answer is yes to any of these questions, then how much violence can one
inflict (again, this includes everything from non-physical violence to the
other extreme (perhaps, using a weapon to kill?)), while still following the mantra
of loving one’s enemy? Does one have the
responsibility to inflict the minimum amount of damage in order to counter the
attack? My moral dilemma can be boiled
down to this: As a female follower of Christ in a world where violence against
women is common, how should I view/use violence (both physical and non-physical)?
I will be spending my next few posts on this ethical quandary.
The first question which the priest and the Levite asked was: "If I stop and help this man, what will happen to me?" But...the good Samaritan reversed the question: "If I do not stop to help this man, what will happen to him?" - Martin Luther King Jr.
**As a side note, most people will think there is no ethical quandary here. Those who see no ethical quandary have already made assumptions about the value of self-preservation being more important than the well-being of another person, even an enemy. I am not necessarily disagreeing with this yet. I am just taking a deep breath and looking at the whole issue of using violence to stop violence. Instead of reacting from a place of fear (which is what I have been doing for years and continue to do), I would like to look at this issue and figure out where my boundaries lay.
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